Calling Doctor Faggot.

...Well we start off by this overly awesome title that serves a quote ripped out from the movie "The Hangover", and used as my own. I like Doctor Faggot. Sounds like an awesome and random excuse for me to act like a faggot whenever I am surely attacked verbally by a heterosexual macho man jock prick. Please apply the George Carlin war theory here. If you don't know who he is, here it is, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sDkhzHQO7jY&translated=1 . He is a genius. Eitherways, I'm going to talk a little about...well since we're already at it, and as the title suggests, Homossexuality. No, I'm not going to diss the gays you idiot, why do you think I like Kurt Cobain? "I was proud of the fact that I was gay even knowing I wasn't." Applies to me. Bi-curiosity helps.

EITHERWAYS, I came here to diss homophobia. It is ridiculous, as that retarded bitch on youtube whose username was Apologetics, now I don't know where she is. But she made a video responding to a famous lesbian atheist by the username KyoraMishiso, which she simply ranted about homophobia being the FEAR of gays. No you retard, we cannot make another word with the latin of hate and homo, so phobia works and describes the hatred. The meaning goes by the one that invented it.

Anyway, homophobia. The hate of gay people. Not to diss the actual homophobics, because Gerald Gardner(google it), was in fact a homophobic person. The question is, why? I generally first thought of this as a product of religion such as christianity, but I think human behaviours also have to do with that, because we still laugh at the back of the gays, and CALL other people gay as to classify them as low, for men, this is being unmanly, and for women...un...womanly? I don't know, don't really care about that.

Why is being gay such a downer? Is it so different for us to just accept that men can like men, and women can like women? or BOTH?

I mean, surely, I have seen a few people that I know that are...well not that bright, and diss homossexuals. But why? Why take your own anger upon someone you have no idea who they are, you heartless motherfucker? Are you so confused of your own identity that you have to diss what you probably are? Fucking christ, I begin to think that humanity is an asshole by heart! So you probably like to take a dick up your ass, or even to suck some. So fucking what?! Dude, that's fine if you like penis, just don't fucking deny it and be a pain in the homossexual's asses!! No pun intended by the way,

William Rockz. Metal.
See what I did there? Deamon Cohln ending thingie?
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Over and out.

This...is where my story begins.

I am typing this right now, as I realized it was important. This story of mine is currently in proggress, and I will write it down in several moments of my life, when I know I trully changed, when I know I did something, when I know something happened.

So here.


I have came to notice my life has been something far better than I ever realized, something I never deserved, something I need but never wanted. At the moment I am in highschool, finished the final exams, which became a burden to me, because I never always liked to study. I never was interested in school. I was always with my head up in the clouds, contemplating choices and fantasies that would soon come to reality. My feet never stepped down. As I type this, my head forever remains in the sky, but my eyes are always down here, on the earth. The unfortunate world I see before me is something I learned to hate. I don't want to make things look so hateful, because the human is made by both a darkside and a brightside. My darkside is the pessimistic, very timid, usually anti-social, cold, critic and angry, very hateful towards what I called society, and refused to bond with anyone. I now have friends I could never imagine to exist. These friends allowed me to be. They were always there for me, and even prenvented me to take my own life. What a mistake it was, to even try to do that. I value life much more now, but I have much to learn yet. There is still much for me to discover about myself and the world. My dream is to bring a message of hope to the world, a message that would say they are not alone. There's always someone there for you, and you can change the fact that you are alone, because my mistakes shouldn't be made by other people. I have pushed away my friends for far too long, because I was, and am depressed. I accept help, but I want to help as well. I, as many people, would like to be loved. But as many people have told me, love comes where I least expect it. I have yet to expect it, for love now has been nothing but a burden to me. Nothing but cheatings and lies and heartbreaks. Enough. I will search no more, and wait. Right now, it's the least I want, but the more I need. In occasions of my life, not frequently but in periods of years, I will have moments of realisation. I will write this as I learn.

Thank you for listening.

Guilherme Rebelo